no, the last post wasn't the end.

what can i say, chilluns? i haven't been leading much of a life. the last most exciting thing to happen to me was, in fact, going to the dentist and getting my pearly whites polished to a shine. the dentist also gave (well not so much gave as sold) me a mouth guard thingie to protect those bad boys because i grind my teeth so hard in my sleep. i would have much rather learned some techniques to de-stress my life so that i don't grind in the first place.
but that's not what the dentist does.

we're winding down here (thank god). or should i say revving up to wind down. in the next 3 weeks i have like seven tests. it's amazing how people here are so accepting of such cruel and unusual punishment. but i have to keep reminding myself that i signed up for this.

the money is low.
like.
waaaaaaaaaay low.

people don't really think about these things when they think of doctors and med students. i am applying for food stamps. i am begging from my family. i have no idea when my next check is coming (financial aid here doesn't really have a schedule; it just sort of falls from the sky on occaision-- if you're lucky). i almost (i said ALMOST) regret deciding to do the trip to cuba. but it's such an opportunity; i couldn't live with myself if i passed it up. i don't know how i'm going to it, but i know i'm going to get there.

i am looking forward to not having to see these people every day. if med school has taught me one thing, it is to cut out the bullshit. i didn't realize how much bullshit i had in my life until i had no time to do anything but all the stuff that ISN'T bullshit. i realized that most of the people here are not my friends, and never will be, and i shouldn't spend my time looking for something that isn't there, or being sad about it. i'm no social outcast; i still go out and do things with them, but i've learned to take it only as far as where i don't lose my mind.

since i'll have no school this summer, i'll actually be able to write more.
sorry about the randomness.
i will get better.